Monday, February 16, 2009
I had an amazing childhood, and have very few bad memories! My best friend Holly lived next door and so I had nothing to complain about. I don't think that my parents did either, until that fated day that I became a TEENAGER. Let's just say that I was not an easy teenager. Those of you that knew me way back then can attest to that! But, we got through it, and now many years and lots of drama later I am a grown-up with 4 children of my own. Lifes lessons have not always been that easy. Of course all those lessons came from choices that I myself made, but all of those good and bad times have lead me to this place in my life when I am the happiest that I have ever been. Sure there are lots of material things that I would LOVE to have. I am not anywhere near the place that I need to be spiritualy in my life, but I'm working on it and know without a doubt that the gospel is what makes me happy. I do love my husband, and my sometimes naughty children. (Thanks to all of you for making me feel better about them and me! Except you John, but I have learned to love you anyway!) Life could be easier, but then my days wouldn't be so memorable. I hope to make my 27th year of life a really great one!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Yesterday, I had to take Katlyn to the dentist in Show Low. Everyone must go, because dad is at work. By the time we got home, I ordered everyone in the bath and in bed by 7:00. Gage was on the top of my "If you weren't cute I would put you in the garbage" list.
Mike worked over the weekend and so I was flying solo every day. Friday was Katlyn's poetry contest and the boys acted like turds. Saturday, Katlyn complained about cleaning her room and bathroom. Surely nobody else has to do those things right? The day ended with the boys getting a trash bag of their toys thrown away because they did not clean them up when I told them too. They both threw enormous fits. Carter cried. Gage told me that he hated me. Yes he did. I cried. In the meantime, Gavin is grumpy because he hasn't had a good nap all day. Sunday wasn't any better and by the time we finally got to church I wanted to cry and scream at the same time. What have I done wrong?
I feel like quite the failure right now. Why are my kids being so frustrating? I find myself yelling at them more than I ever have. I feel like a horrible mom. I see all these moms that have it all together, and I think what the heck? Why can't I be like that? Why can't my 3 year old go one day without getting into serious trouble lately? Why does my 8 year old have such an attitude, and why does my 5 year old not listen to me and do what I tell him to without being asked 10 times?
Any advice would be appreciated. I hope that one day they will read this and say "Wow, poor mom. We were such brats!" I know that I say that a lot when I think back to how naughty and mean I was to my mom. So, maybe this is just paybacks? Beacause you know what they say about that. They are hell, and that's about what this feels like!
Monday, February 2, 2009
Katlyn participated in the poetry contest on Friday at school. She was one of the ones that got picked from her class to recite in front of the whole 3rd grade and a lot of parents. She was so nervous, but did great! Her poem was "The Creature in the Classroom."
This girl has her fathers memory. I can't memorize the word list on her DS game Brain Age, and she memorized this poem in two days! She is so smart, and tries so hard to do things right and the best that she can all the time. We love her tons! Congratulations Katlyn!